love anything.

i am not a comic fan of any type.

fiancee knows this, but still sends me comics anyways (because he’s a fan).

so this morning, he sent me this.

i clicked.

then sighed and wondered while it loaded, why did he send me another? i don’t get comics!

but this made my week and it was a comic i could handle (because really, who doesn’t love C.S. Lewis quotes).  and it really hit home for me, as i have struggled with being open and vulnerable as i move towards marriage.

i hate being open and vulnerable because it’s scary and difficult and it means working with other people.  and to be honest, there are many days where it would be easier to sit under my pile of blankets and keep to myself.  sure, being vulnerable with my fiancee or friends can be hard at times, but it’s opening up to people who don’t like you.  it’s opening yourself up to people you’re unsure of, people who have treated you poorly in the past and saying, hey, this is what i’m feeling.  because that’s where i find myself these days.  i find myself having to be vulnerable with people i find difficult to love and trust.  do i have to spill everything out of my gut to them? no (because boundaries). but sometimes to move forward in life, you have to let these people know where you are in life.

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